tin tan

2007-08-11T03:55:00.001-07:00

2007-07-30T16:23:00.000-07:00

today i am staying at home just to listen to music. ive been listening to richard hell and the voidoids song "im your man" its great. i wish i could listen to it in my car. and drive up the coast.

i am so glad to be done with school. one step closer to exploring the world. ive been waiting 23 years.

2007-07-30T03:54:00.000-07:00

home alone and cant sleep. i really should since it has been a long weekend of driving and trying to fit in a large number of social events into three days.

i came pretty close to finding out what its like to shit your pants. horrible. i never want to feel that way again. fuck iced coffee. fuck ciggarettes. and fuck the traffic on the 405. good thing i have tight asshole muscles. yeah, its true. if it wasnt id stll be outside washing my seats clean.

im going to try and force myself to sleep. eventually i will force myself to update this journral

one more thing

2007-07-11T16:20:00.000-07:00

becky and chris were in la picking up a work computer. met up with them at chris' uncles house in echo park. this house was amazing! the most perfect, serene, and warm house i have been to in la. clearly they have a lot of money, because this house is baller.

we ate dinner in the backyard which has a beutiful view of the downtown la skyline. then we went down into his uncle erics studio (which is an entire house converted into a studio) and i watched as becky and chris finished making their bowls. oh yeah, his uncle is an artist in the truest form. he is a sculpter, makes hand made tiles, photographer, dress maker, creative genious. the atmosphere was so lovely. sitting at the table with his partner and their daughter. i felt so happy for that little girl, she has two dads who love her so much. it always makes me happy to see that.

i hope i can play with all his awesome art supplies (can i call them supplies? its his livelyhood, perhaps its a bit more) sometime soon. afterwards we went back to the house and becky, chris, justin and i sat around the table doodling and laughing. having too much fun because our neighbor complained. i love those two.

i totally slept in and missed class. fuck. oh well. last night was perfect. i wish justin couldve been there, but i know one day soon we will have that together. yup, one day real soon.

2007-07-11T14:27:00.000-07:00

why do people eat taco bell when they are sober? seriously, i see people sitting out in the hot sun eating taco bell and it makes me ill.

sitting in class. so boring. so annoying. my teacher wants us to talk about world events and that just opens up a can of close-minded worms. "We are in college, we are smart" I hate this shit. What does this have to do with the class?

Here is an interesting article:http://abcnews.go.com/2020/Story?id=3088298&page=2

"There was an article in the LA times, I didnt read the article, just the headlines. I dont read the newspaper. Its true"

I hate this class and these people.

2007-07-10T11:47:00.000-07:00

you know what i love?

when your hanging out with a group of people listening to riot grrl music and believing for a split second that your 14 again in your bedroom playing shitty mix tapes or on the bus heading to a show to see one of your idols.

i am so lazy! i love it. its summer. i just wish i had more friends in la to share it with.

2007-07-09T16:21:00.000-07:00

hack

2007-06-12T14:34:00.000-07:00

short update. this weekend was pretty fun. sara and ray came down for the weekend so that meant going out and drinking. totally fun but i got nothing done. so im pretty out of it. three hours of sleep! one down and three to go!

i just want to be on a rooftop drinking beers. three more weeks!

clam strips

2007-06-07T10:21:00.000-07:00

when i stayed with tommy we walked by white castle everyday and everyday i saw an add for their 99cent clam strips. clam strips for 99cents? sounds amazing/disgusting.

i am so over school. hah, that sounds snotty. no really, i am. group projects are hell and i never want to do one ever again. unless i get paid.

next thursday i am done with college for good. yes, i have one session of summer school, but after that i am done. how exciting! i love school, and i will be going back very soon, but it will be so nice to do something else.

dude

2007-06-06T14:48:00.000-07:00

i totally forgot how much of a fox Joaquin Phoenix is!

fuck yes

2007-06-05T01:31:00.000-07:00

From Long Beach, CA (LGB) to New York, NY (JFK)

Tuesday, 03 Jul 07
Flight 255 Depart Long Beach, CA (LGB) at 9:40 PM and arrive in Washington, DC/Dulles (IAD) at 5:24 AM (next day)

Wednesday, 04 Jul 07
Flight 1300 Depart Washington, DC/Dulles (IAD) at 6:00 AM and arrive in New York, NY (JFK) at 7:17 AM

From New York, NY (JFK) to Long Beach, CA (LGB)

Sunday, 08 Jul 07
Flight 219 Depart New York, NY (JFK) at 5:15 PM and arrive in Long Beach, CA (LGB) at 8:33 PM

why am i still awake? today has been the longest day ever. clothes are done drying, reading is done and i am off to la la land.

digital

2007-06-05T01:08:00.000-07:00

new york keeps calling me. i swear it does. since i can remember all i have ever wanted to do was move to new york. fuck man, why does this shit have to be hard. it shouldnt be. it wont be. i will go.

twerk

2007-06-04T16:02:00.000-07:00

friday:came into sd around 1pm. went to beckys house with a 12 pack. sat on the porch and drank beers. had mexican food delivered. went to dads. took shower. took cab to whistle stop. hung out with vicki, serri and marco. drove around and smoked a joint. went to livewire. amy and ramon were there. becky and chris showed up. went to turf club. ran into priscila, eddie, and juan. hung out and had more drinks. ran into andy. lifted blue avalanche. went to beckys for bonfire till 4.

saturday:went to lunch with mom, marie and max. i paid. it was a lot. came back to dads. got ready for shawnas graduation party. picked up marbrisa and ramon. saw sara, lisa, jessica, beau, shawna, brandon and loads more people i love. drank and ate. took lots of photos. i miss everyone being together and being silly. left. dropped marbrisa off at home. went to jeffs house. lame lame lame. came home.

sunday:rock and roll marathon wakes me up at six am. car has been towed. 330 dollars later and i am still hung over. ate pizza. watched bad tv. faith came over and we walked to yardhouse. two beers and a calamari appetizer. went and got candy. walked to morrissey at the embarcadero. line was long. crowd was insane. show was good but way too short. too short for 60 dollars. well, 30 since we sold two extra tickets for 60 bucks and split the difference. walked home with faith. went home. tried to sleep.

monday:drove up to la early this morning with nelson. nelson is an awesome guy with a lot of interesting things to say. the drive felt like a half an hour drive, not a two hour drive. sitting in history class. i just want to go home and snuggle.

sara, get a blog or something.

i am so lame

2007-05-31T21:14:00.000-07:00

40 Secrets About Yourself
Be HONEST no matter what.

1. What is your natural hair color?
brown. i havent dyed my hair in a long time.

2. Where was your default pic taken?
i dont have one?

3. What's your middle name?
Marisa

4. Your current relationship status?
married with 4 kids

5. Honestly, does your crush like you back?
justin gets upset when i saw we are dating. we are past that. so i guess that means he isnt my crush anymore.

6. What is your current mood?
restless...kinda

7. What color underwear are you wearing?
they look like lacey black shorts

8. What makes you happy?
a joint

10. If you could go back in time, and change something what would you change?
no, nothing.

11. If you MUST be an animal for ONE day- what would you be?
manatee, everyday

12. Ever had a near death experience?
car accident?

13. Something you do a lot?
breathe, blink, pee and shit, and talk. yep, always talking

14. What's the name of the song stuck in your head right now?
none

15. Who did you copy and paste this from?
someone almost as lame as myself

16. Name someone with the same b-day as you?
my aunt in mexico, that bitch

17. When was the last time you cried?
today, everyday i get emotional

18. Have you ever sung in front of a large audience?
just radio city music hall

19. If you could have one super power what would it be?
to live forever and with one sigle touch let everyone i love live forever too

20. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite/same sex?
first the face, hair then outfit height build

21. What do you usually order from Starbucks?
iced coffee

22. What's your biggest secret?
i dont think i have one

23. Favorite colors?
red

24. When was the last time you lied?
how would you know i wasnt lying?

25. Do you still watch kiddy movies or TV shows?
no

27. What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
not a thing. something smells funny.

28. Do you speak any other language?
espanol

29. What's your favorite smell?
things like my grandma when i cuddle up against her, my moms sweaters, my dads cologne, justins side of the bed...shit like that

30. If you could describe your life in one word what would it be?
dynamic

31. When was the last time you gave/received a hug?
this morning from my boyfriend

32. Have you ever been kissed in the rain?
how i wish it would rain

33. What are you thinking about right now?
weed

34. What should you be doing?
homework

35. What was the last thing that made you upset/angry?
the final on wednesday

36. How often do you pray?
...never.

37. Do you like working in the yard?
we dont have one

38. If you could have any last name in the world, what would you want?
my own

39. Do you act differently around your crush?
i suppose

40. Name one song that reminds you of an ex?
rum to whiskey by the murder city devils

one more thing

2007-05-31T12:42:00.000-07:00

rock on, big girl. love beth ditto.

and

fafi, the amazing french graffiti artist has teamed up with le sport sac to create the above bag. how much do i want it? so much! but, when i calculated price+shipping+tax i thought again. ahhh!

hello muda...hello fodda

2007-05-31T12:19:00.000-07:00

hello!

yesterday after a hellish morning of school/work i drove over to my grandparents house to have dinner. i sat in the living room and updated my grandparents on my life, the weekend, anything really. they told me stories that i could never get tired of hearing. stories about new york, old jewish customs, family etc.

we then had a dinner. left overs from when my grandma hosted a big dinner party for the family. chicken, corn, salad, and carrot souffle. by the way, carrot souffle is the best thing in the entire world. it was so delicious. and of course i ate my corn on the cob with the little corn dish/holders my grandma has had since i was tiny.

after dinner my grandma and i watched housee hunters (a tradition for the two of us) and then we watched Tevye the Milkman. Its an old yiddish movie I found at Vidiots and I thought my grandparents would enjoy it. It was actually pretty good and most of the enjoyment came from seeing how much my grandma enjoyed/identified with it.

My great-grandparents immigrated to NYC from Russia in 1926. My great-grandfather came first illegally through Canada. He worked as a dress maker until he could afford to bring my great-grandmother, grandmother, and three great uncles(who I never met). When my grandma came to the US it was in the steerage part of the ship. I guess my great-grandfather had saved enough to buy them all first class tickets, but bc they were coming illegally, the people who brought them over stole from them and they ended up in steerage. I could not imagine.

Anyway, my great-grandparents were orthodox jews who spoke yiddish and came from the old country. I never completly realized how important those ideals, which seem so antiquated, mean to my grandma. The story is about Tevye, a milkman, whose youngest daughter marries a gentile man. The family is destroyed by it and considers her dead. Take away all the melodramatic stuff and I began to understand why it was so important back then for Jews in Russia to stick with Jews. Towards the end of the film Tevye is asked to leave the countryside he has called home all his life, because he is jewish. This is set before WW2 and even before Hitler took over, so not only do you see how much people hated jews, but how they really are the wondering people. I dont know where this is going...but i understand why religion was so important and keeping their idenity. I realize how a sense of place is crucial to people. I consider san diego my sense of place, my moms house, my dads, my grandparents etc. To not have that would be odd, and what do you hold onto? Thats all these people had and I dont understand it as well as my grandmother does because she came from a time when her family was forced to leave because of who they were.

i probably make no sense. im not a zionist or anything, this isnt some pro-israel pro-judism or what have you kinda rant. for my great-grandparents, grandparents and those before them judism and the jewish community was a sense of belonging and place. they were the wondering people and they needed some foundation. Okay, no more im just ranting about this. but thats what the blog is for.

the night was great. i love my grandmother so much. she has always been such an amazing woman, such strength and love. i cant imagine life without her. id believe in heaven just to know i wont be without her forever.

Oh man!

2007-05-29T10:41:00.000-07:00

Disneyland was amazing. We had so so so much fun. Had our romantic anniversary dinner at the restaurant thats at the beginning of the priates of the caribbean ride. It was so expensive and so not that good. I think the best part was laughing about how silly the entire thing was with Justin.

We rode all the rides, I almost shit myself on Space Mountain. I was laughing and screaming so much! I will post photos later.

The rest of the weekend was just so nice. We had Korean BBQ and went shopping on Saturday. So soo sooo much fun. If you havent done Korean BBQ than you really should! Later on that evening I went out with Lisa and Guilliana. Hit up some gay bars in west hollywood. danced and drank fancy cocktails. It was awesome. A good ladies night.

As fun as the weekend was, I have neglected the homework I needed to do. How does this happen? I am so tired and nervous. Nobody to blame but myself. I need to kick this procrastination bug!

Okay, I am going to get coffee and do homework. Blargh.

330

2007-05-24T10:43:00.000-07:00

$330 for a trip to the er? jesus, how do people afford health care? Justin and I are moving to france where that shit is for free. bless having a euro boyfriend.

disneyland! in 20 minutes. im in class right now, justin is meeting me by the flag pole and then we are on our way.

i went to the er last night because i was feeling so bad. i thought i had every heart condition in the world. turns out im fine but i might have a chest infection or something. so the doctor gave me some medicine. like cough syrup with codine. i dont know if i actually want the perscription. blah.

feminist theory makes me want to kill kill kill. nah, i like it. im just too excited for DINNEYLAND!!!!

2007-05-22T18:31:00.001-07:00

"we are what we pretend to be, so we must be careful what we pretend to be."

2007-05-22T10:18:00.000-07:00

booo

this class is so boring.

boooo

2007-05-21T14:18:00.000-07:00

To laugh often and much;

To win the respect of intelligent people
and the affection of children;

To earn the appreciation of honest critics
and endure the betrayal of false friends;

To appreciate beauty;
To find the best in others;

To leave the world a bit better, whether by
a healthy child, a garden patch
or a redeemed social condition;

To know even one life has breathed
easier because you have lived;

This is to have succeeded.

~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

i am feeling sappy, okay?

A co-worker, pretty healthy guy, had a heartattack this weekend. He has been on life support. I dont know him as well as my bosses, but it still affects me. Life is so precious, it really is. He is in my thoughts, I hope he recovers quickly and well.

Disneyland! Thursday! I am so in love!

2007-05-20T17:08:00.002-07:00

a studio is not a proper place to entertain over night guests. no matter how hard you try. believe me.

justin and i had a lovely lunch at mr. cecils ribs followed by an even nicer nap time. he is at work now and i am clearly putting off my biggest responisbility this weekend: finishing my paper.

it was nice to have jenn and jackie stay with us for the day, but it really threw me off my scholastic schedule for this weekend. now i am pushing off a possible panick attack at the thought of just how much work I must do between now and 5pm tomorrow.

cold is almost gone. no drinking until it is.

Mbote!

2007-05-18T12:08:00.000-07:00

Thats how you say hello in Lingala. Lingala is a Bantu language spoken throughout the northwestern part of the Democratic Republic of the Congo (Congo-Kinshasa) and a large part of the Republic of the Congo (Congo-Brazzaville), as well as to some degree in Angola and the Central African Republic. It has over 10 million speakers.

I have decided I have to move back to Mexico. My spanish is sliping and everytime I think of life from 0-6 years I get nostalgic because I was around the things I now appreciate so much. I miss my abuelita, and wish I could have spent more time with her. Maybe this all stems to my concern with my dad. He isnt doing so well, and he has me worried sick. Everytime I call and he doesnt answer I automatically assume he is slumped over in his bathroom dead. Its horrible.

Anyway, I want to reconnect with a part of me that I know is always there...but its just harder to find it these days.

Dukakis project was pretty productive today. Spent a few hours walking the streets of North Westwood. I must have taken hundreds of photos of illegally parked cars, sidewalks, roads, parking structures and street sweepers. I left all the counting to my team mates! Anyway, lunch with Justin this afternoon and then some sleep. I feel my cold coming back.

2007-05-17T20:23:00.000-07:00

Lucha Reyes, la reyna del mariachi!

ayyyyyyyyyye...lola beltran

Amalia Mendoza...aqui me vengo a tomar! ayyee ayyyye!

que lo que paso?! Sonia Lopez "el ladron"!

...por eso canta..por eso pena...

2007-05-17T19:58:00.000-07:00

this is what life is all about sometimes

monja

2007-05-17T12:14:00.000-07:00

Feeling so much better today! Still cant breathe out of my nose, but I am coughing up a bit and my snot is much thicker and less frequent which is all very good.

Even though I know I could easily go down to San Diego, I wont do it. Feeling fine now doesnt not mean I am feeling 100% better. Besides, better to be competly cured for the up coming weekend than semi for this weekend. repition.

Justin and I are celebrating our 2 year anniversary! How exciting! 2 years of an amazing thing and it only keeps getting better. There are so many little and big things that I love about him, us together that I can never really articulate. I am just happy. No big thing about it, and that is something that isnt very easy. I know whatever we do, we will have each other and no matter how annoyed we get, we always end the day laughing and getting over whatever it was.

Oooo! We are going to DISNEYLAND! I am completly thrilled, Justin isnt so much. We will have a good time, I promise you!

Back to work

Bangawoyo!

2007-05-15T10:37:00.000-07:00

Thats how you say hello in Korean. Thats the nice thing about Flickr, everytime you sign in you learn a new way to say hello in a different language! Amazing.

I am in my feminist theory class. We had to do some group project this morning which irritated me. One of the girls in my group was getting way to into semantics and I wanted to slap her. Then, when it actually came time to presenting, they dump it on me. Psh, she couldnt keep her mouth shut the entire time we were working in a group and now she suddenly cant talk. Bullshit.

My cough is pretty annoying as well. I almost didn't go to school today, but I decided it was probably best that I do. I have to go to work, finish my section for the UP 120 and finally get to that research paper. This quarter is just not doing it for me.

Cant wait to have grilled cheese and soup with my french fry

:0)

so good

2007-05-14T15:39:00.000-07:00

oh! read about the sopranos, damn! cant wait to see that shit!

Wow

2007-05-14T13:55:00.000-07:00

So after 3-4 years I have decided to cancel my myspace account. I was sick of spending hours glued to the screen checking myspace constantly to see if I had any new comments/messages. I dont think lurking peoples pages is very healthy either. Nor is starting a sentence with "I was on myspace the other day..." I havent been keeping in touch with people the way I had hoped I would months before when I first decided to delete my account. I was sick of "top 8" sensitivity, reading into comments too much, myspace trackers the whole lot.

Time to start living, not being obsessed about some web page that is largely a creation of petty high school drama.

Over it.

jello

2007-05-08T12:09:00.000-07:00

so old school!

anyway...

i am such a fuck up. i think i lost justins card, and i feel awful. he was nice enough to lend it to me and i done fucked it up. please dont be mad, french fry.

europole

2007-05-07T16:31:00.000-07:00

this weekend was pretty fun. on friday justin, ramon, marbrisa and i went to sushi deli. we didnt have to wait very long at all. i had two large crazy milks which pretty much set me up to get pretty trashed. one beer later and a few joints and i was feeling more than fine. i still have to post the last 2 weekends up on flickr. anyway, hung out at maries house and really got comfy on her porch. its such a sweet little house. very happy for her, colin and katie.

the next day i didnt feel so great. now when i drink i am pretty much out of commision until the day after. a sign of age? doubt it. more like i actually do something besides party these days and i am overall more tired than a few years ago. that doesnt make much sense.

faith, justin and i went to farmers market and chicano park. went to some art gallery where i purchased loteria cards with illustrations done by posada. pretty awesome. went to a panaderia and bought some goodies (which i left in faiths car) and then headed to bustos and sarahs house for a bbq. when we got there bustos was drunk and there was no food. i wasnt feeling so well, so that kinda just irritated me more than it would have if i had been feeling great. anyway, faith and i left, i came home and chilled. dad and i went to a cinco de mayo party in the building. gross mexican food and old rich white people. oh, and free beer. i only had one and a half. i didnt even want any, i just felt like drinking because there wasnt much else to do. some people thought i was my dads girlfriend. gross. we left and hung out at home for a bit. thought i would go out but i didnt. i passed out at midnight instead.

the next day i woke up way to early and went to my moms house. my mom, max and i saw spider man 3. my mom liked it and my brother and i liked making fun of it. we went to fudruckers afterwards and i caught up with my mom and brother over some burgers and steak cut fries. afterwards i went back to my moms house and she showed me these awesome photographs from cuba she bought plus this great dia de los muertos pin she got me (she has a matching one on her bike)

drove back home to la and felt like crap. so tired and sleepy. came home and worked on a paper. took a midterm today and i doubt i did as best as i could. procrastination. i hate when you get a midterm and you realize you didnt have to read 95% of the shit you did, but it just so happens that the 95% you did read wasnt even on the fucking test. I hate school sometimes.

So torn about what to do after college, before grad school, blah blah blah. There is always this pressure from inside myself to be wild and crazy and move far away and be insane. Truth is I love my parents and grandparents and I hate being away from them for too long. I can finally appreciate what I have, i guess and having recently obsessed over life and death I dont want to miss any minute away from them. I just dont know what to do. Honestly I think I'm depressed. This is too long of a blog entry. At the moment all I can think about is feminist discourse and updating my flickr.

4:04

2007-05-03T15:59:00.000-07:00

Today has been great! I went to school and made up a spread sheet for Don Spring. That man is such a creep, but oe of our biggest customers so he needs special care. Anyway, made him his spread sheet and hauled ass to my feminist theory class. It was a pretty interesting discussion today and I actually enjoyed the group presentations. I got my paper back on Cixous and got an A which is always exciting. Left class and went to work again to finish up some odds and ends. Did that and met up with Justin on his lunch break. We went to some italian place on Santa Monica and ate some delicious sandwiches and salad.

We spoke about moving to Barcelona in January of 2008. I know, I always go back and forth, but Barcelona is something we have talked about for the past year and half and this time Justin actually looked interested. Hah! He is the more practical one, whereas I am the more flighty head in the clouds one. I hope we make some sort of big move. I wouldnt mind living in LA or even moving back to SD, but I want to do something with my youth that doesnt make sense and is exciting.

Anyway, after lunch we dropped the rent check off and I dropped Justin off at work. Drove to the tire place up the street to get my back right tire patched up. Justin discovered a screw in my tire monday morning! Just last week after my front right tire blew out on the 101 North (no shoulder, lots of traffic) I got all new tires and a week later one gets a screw stuck in it! Just my luck. Actually, it isnt that bad. Dropped the car off and walked to the 99 cent store where I bought some new ice trays, plastic bags, candles and 6 of these awesome rose drinking glasses.

Walked home with the goods and opened up all the windows to air our shit out. It gets so stuffy in our apartment. Interesting fact, our apartment (well, more like attached cottages) were built in the 1940's to house the air force troops during the war. It makes perfect sense since we live close the the Santa Monica airport. Anyway, back to my day...

Walked to the record store down the street and picked up some Beegees cd's for Aldren. I have no idea why he wants those cd's but he is so sweet to my grandparents I wont even question it. Picked up some records as well and spoke to the owner about possibly going in and seeing his stash in the back. Such a bummer that this place is closing. I guess the owner just had enough of retail and decided to close up shop. First the awesome vintage store and now the record shop. All we have is trader joes now. Hah!

Walked to the atm to get some cash and almost walked away without my atm card. Got change at Trader Joes to do laundry and when I arrived home and put everything away someone yanked the laundry machine. Great. Time to clean and take a shower. As you can see, nothing really exciting happened today, but it was just a good day all around. It is so beautiful outside today I just couldnt spend it at work all day.

Going to San Diego this weekend, midterms next week, I cant wait for summer.

ska ska ska

2007-05-02T13:03:00.000-07:00

Selda...man those songs have been stuck in my head all day. That was the most intense thing I have heard in awhile. A record that I obsess about until I have it (because I HAVE TO HAVE IT) and then I just listen to over and over again.

So many things to do for school, and then so many job applications for a job, and then so many grad school applications.

I just want Justin and I to get away and do something fun for the both of us.

Burger Planning

2007-05-01T18:13:00.000-07:00

One of my photos was accepted into this years critical planning jounral! the topic was spatial justice and aside from getting a photo approved, i also helped edit the photos for this years issue.

http://www.spa.ucla.edu/critplan/

that is the photo they will be using!

Working on the journal, being an urban planning minor, living in la...I really like UCLA's program. I hope I get into the graduate program.

Sunshine

2007-04-29T12:01:00.000-07:00

Last night I went out and about in San Diego even though I swore I wouldn't. Well, I should have stuck with that promise because it was a pretty stupid night. Some nice highlights, but over all a waste of time. Well, maybe not completely. I guess you need to be constantly reminded of who real friends/decent people are. Am I being vague? Of course, but only two people read this and they already know the drill.

And I love them very much.

B-Fry

2007-04-28T15:02:00.000-07:00

Had dinner with Marbrisa last night at the Red Sea. Great Ethiopian food on University and 57th in San Diego. Every time I hang out with Marbrisa I realize how much I have missed her since the last time I saw her. Before eating we spent some quality porch time catching up and dishing it out. Dinner was great, we didn't gursha each other, but it was still fun. Plenty of leftovers! I hope next time I am down the four of us can all go and order bottles of that sweet honey wine.

Came home (my dads) and took care of Lucy. Her paws have been acting up and she has been having difficulty walking. Made a bed on the floor and her and I watched tv until midnight and then we both passed out.

Hope to see Marie for a little bit before I head up to LA. Got coffee at Krakatoa with Marbrisa this morning and now I am doing laundry, staring at my hairy ass legs.

So much homework to do, totally dreading it. Damn. Used Brandons log in on livejournal to check out old pandarojo posts from five years ago! Man, it took me back. Being 18 wasnt so bad after all. Good memories, I get nostalgic but then I realize that just being able to look back and appreciate all those good times is a blessing in itself. God, when did I become so fucking corny?

sleepy head

2007-04-26T22:12:00.000-07:00

hi justin! i love you!

Viva Mexico!

2007-04-26T22:00:00.000-07:00

Currently sitting in my old room at my moms house. Lots of old memories here of being an angst ridden teenager in el cajon. my zebra pillows and bla ck comforter are still here to remind me of those good times. oh, and all my tacky panda/manatee memorabilia.

today i spent the day with my mom. we went to the dentist to get our teeth cleaned. hah! after 2 years of neglecting this bi-yearly responsibility I was surprised to find that i had no cavities or horrible mouth/gum disease. i did get a new toothbrush in a handy zip up case and some floss. always great. especially when half way through my drive i realized i forgot mine at home.

we went to mexico! soo much fun! i was able to spend time with my moms friend angelica and her mom. went down to pick up my moms new leathers (she rides motorcycles) which were pretty bad ass. then we went to la diferencia and had tamarindomaritinis and tapas galore! my tiofederico met us there and we all laughed and joked and told stories. i had cafe deolla which is one of the most delicious drinks.

the nicest thing was hearing spanish all around me and smelling that tj air. sounds cheesy, but mexico has this smell to it that i love. it makes me sad because it reminds me of my abuelita and how much i miss her. that only reminds me of my dad and how sad he seems. i spoke to federico a little bit (he has known my dad and mom for 25 years!) and he told me that my dad was stubborn and just let him be him. yeah yeah, i know. but my dad is my dad and i love him and i cant just ignore it. i dunno, what can i say or do? either way it felt nice to talk to someone about my dad because i rarely if ever talk to my family in mexico.

aye, mi queridomexico. tantoqueteextrano.

2007-04-25T17:56:00.000-07:00

ramon and justin. i totally staged this photo. i love it.

Both Ends of the Speculum

2007-04-25T17:22:00.000-07:00

i posted 2 blogs almost 2 months ago and i have decided to begin anew.

this quarter has been very stressful. four classes, demanding (and exciting) internship, and work. on top of that add social life and family. lord.

the internship with break the cycle is exactly what i need. too bad i wasted time at the adl when i could have been doing even more amazing things with btc. either way, its proved to be very challenging and very demanding. my goal is to implement a student center for dating violence on campus that will be able to sustain itself for years to come. hah! a challenge indeed, but its a good one and one i plan on tackling well into summer.

going to see david sedaris tonight with alana at royce hall. 2 papers to do before, after and before (before class that is) then down to san diego for a dentist appointment. i havent been feeling very well. possible doctors appointment this friday? oh joy.