today i am staying at home just to listen to music. ive been listening to richard hell and the voidoids song "im your man" its great. i wish i could listen to it in my car. and drive up the coast.

i am so glad to be done with school. one step closer to exploring the world. ive been waiting 23 years.

home alone and cant sleep. i really should since it has been a long weekend of driving and trying to fit in a large number of social events into three days.

i came pretty close to finding out what its like to shit your pants. horrible. i never want to feel that way again. fuck iced coffee. fuck ciggarettes. and fuck the traffic on the 405. good thing i have tight asshole muscles. yeah, its true. if it wasnt id stll be outside washing my seats clean.

im going to try and force myself to sleep. eventually i will force myself to update this journral

one more thing

becky and chris were in la picking up a work computer. met up with them at chris' uncles house in echo park. this house was amazing! the most perfect, serene, and warm house i have been to in la. clearly they have a lot of money, because this house is baller.

we ate dinner in the backyard which has a beutiful view of the downtown la skyline. then we went down into his uncle erics studio (which is an entire house converted into a studio) and i watched as becky and chris finished making their bowls. oh yeah, his uncle is an artist in the truest form. he is a sculpter, makes hand made tiles, photographer, dress maker, creative genious. the atmosphere was so lovely. sitting at the table with his partner and their daughter. i felt so happy for that little girl, she has two dads who love her so much. it always makes me happy to see that.

i hope i can play with all his awesome art supplies (can i call them supplies? its his livelyhood, perhaps its a bit more) sometime soon. afterwards we went back to the house and becky, chris, justin and i sat around the table doodling and laughing. having too much fun because our neighbor complained. i love those two.

i totally slept in and missed class. fuck. oh well. last night was perfect. i wish justin couldve been there, but i know one day soon we will have that together. yup, one day real soon.

why do people eat taco bell when they are sober? seriously, i see people sitting out in the hot sun eating taco bell and it makes me ill.

sitting in class. so boring. so annoying. my teacher wants us to talk about world events and that just opens up a can of close-minded worms. "We are in college, we are smart" I hate this shit. What does this have to do with the class?

Here is an interesting article:http://abcnews.go.com/2020/Story?id=3088298&page=2

"There was an article in the LA times, I didnt read the article, just the headlines. I dont read the newspaper. Its true"

I hate this class and these people.

you know what i love?

when your hanging out with a group of people listening to riot grrl music and believing for a split second that your 14 again in your bedroom playing shitty mix tapes or on the bus heading to a show to see one of your idols.

i am so lazy! i love it. its summer. i just wish i had more friends in la to share it with.